lifesong
Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord
Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord
Lead me Lord
Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days
Lead me, Oh Lord
Lead me Lord
Saturday, July 22, 2006
-7/22/2006 12:43:00 PM
last night i cried.. surrendering to the feeling of emptiness in the still quiet night.. everyone's asleep, i can't call anyone.. all i have is me. and the sadness of my tears.. which fell silently away from me.. someday, some one night, i'll be completely alone.. not even my tears to comfort me..
-7/22/2006 02:58:00 AM
my kuya and i had a chat about plans in the future then i got to thinking that life is not that easy.. i have to take things one day at a time before i get what i really want.. hmmm.. am i patient enough for that? i hope so.. God give me the strength..
Friday, July 21, 2006
-7/21/2006 11:34:00 PM
they're here! we're singing our hearts out and having margaritas [which i mixed]. haha. tas later, we're gonna have fillet mignon and salmon.. fancy dinner e. haha. huy karlo, musta ung blind date? nakakatawa naman! haha. for theo, right? tell cams, date nia ung kapatid ko! ;p jay!! musta ung consti mo? too bad about the viena consti.. you'll do better next time. imissyou. hehe.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
-7/20/2006 09:53:00 PM
oh my googolyoo! i had three de ja vus today!! in one day! nu kaya ibig sabihin non?
tas i saw lunch makers kanina! sa sobrang excitement ko, narona ako, jay! haha. yaki! ;p
hmmm.. i'm gonna see my brothers and my dad tom na.. cool! haha. then we'll have drinks, a nice dinner and play poker cgro.. haha. ima beat their asses. :P then on sat here, we'll hit the beach! i wanna snorkel! woohoo! today's just so hot and i still have no sleep.. check ko kung nagwowork ung charger na binili ko for my nokia fone.. when i asked for assistance, they asked kung ano fone ko.. i said nokia 3230. then he said, 'wow! that's a good fone!' i'm like.. uh.. luma na kaya un sa pinas!! haha. hay.. i miss going out there.. mas masaya e.. huhu. :c
musta ang soccer niyo, L2? nakita niyo ba ako? i just dropped by and sat sa bench.. meron kc ako e kaya hirap tumakbo.. hehe. ;p oopsie.. friends na! later!
-7/20/2006 11:11:00 AM
she said: "i'll never let you out of my sight again. i'm going to keep on looking at you and never stop."
and after a pause: "i get scared when my eye blinks. scared that during that second when my gaze is switched off, a snake or a rat or another man could slip into your place.
he tried to raise himself a little to touch her with her lips.
she shook her head:"no, i just want to look at you."
and then: "i'm going to leave the lamp on all night. every night."
- identity by Milan Kundera
just finished the book. i cried. thanks for giving it to me..
who am i? i am the memory in your heart. the beauty that you see. the soul that you define.
why do we live? to procreate. to chow. for coitus. to love.
what is death? it is to be in a place where you've lost sight of who you are and people around you are strangers who cannot even tell the beauty in your soul, the sparkle of your eyes nor the wonder of your name..
-7/20/2006 01:33:00 AM
i can't wait to earn on my own and have my own life.. so it wouldn't be too complicated.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
-7/19/2006 02:50:00 AM
just heard.. my baby's not eating well when we left.. :(
-7/19/2006 01:19:00 AM
kaninang umaga, i tried to catch the sunrise but sadly, i can't see it. the air was so cool and the sky so clear. feels like i'm in baguio..
i'm watching roseanne on nick at nite now. this is what jay told me to watch. i missed her a lot today. pano ba naman, this place is so her! we passed by her birth town kanina while going to Sta. Clara. i saw the Our Lady of Peace chapel. para shang Edsa Shrine but bigger si Mama Mary and i really like her face. so calm and solemn.. we went to silicon valley and i saw yahoo and paramount. haha. then we ate at PF Chang's in Stanford. yummy food! i ordered wok seared lamb. haha. then a while ago at lunch, i talked to her lola. nakakatawa tlaga un. ang kulit. my tita bought me a Stanford shirt. hehe. tas i saw body shop dito and i bought vanilla cologne and lip balm. with my own money! haha. well, not really kc bigay lang ni mom un.. di bale.. pag nagwork na ko, i can call it on my own na. haha. i'll get a phone next week maybe pag nagkita na kami nila kuya. musta na kaya ang L2? *screams* hoy! mga ulupong! musta na kayo? miss ko na kayo!
i wanna watch my super ex-girlfriend and john tucker must die! and lady in the water!! waah! i want! may nakapanood na ba non jan sa Pinas? is it nice?
my kuya bought CSI Vegas season 3. yipee! marathon. haha.
oh well.. my day was quiet.. basically, i just missed everyone. especially jay..
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
-7/18/2006 03:24:00 AM
btw, the time in my blog is manila time.. i'll change it soon when i get settled. need to poop. wow! my first poop sa linisan ng poopoo dito sa US, sanfo. haha.
-7/18/2006 03:02:00 AM
finally, i'm here.. everything feels like a dream.. i slept through the whole flight and when i woke up, i listened again, played and read the stories.. i looked out the window constantly.. gumagalaw pala ang wings ng plane.. i looked out and saw the cars, as little as they could be, moving.. their lights shimmering in the dark.. could the people in the car see me looking down on them? all i could see were lights.. and they slowly fade as i reach the clouds.. God.. i felt alone.. i slept it off.. i woke up because they were serving food na tas i saw the moon. wow! amazing.. i saw it so close, it felt like i could touch it..
before we landed, all i could see was the ocean and slowly, i saw land. the water sparkled in the sunlight. and to think it was around 6.00p that time. i saw the longest bridge in my entire life.
andito na talaga ako.. di parin sumisink in.. para lang ako nagvavacation e.. it's a nice feeling to think na i'm just on a vacation.. i hope that feeling won't go.. nakakalungkot kasi..
i miss everyone there.. i wish they were all here with me..
ima take a shower in a while and sleep.. been feeling sleepy a lot lately..
thanks to everyone who was with me in the airport. Cyndz, Steven, Karlo, Pao, Han, Yumi, Gela, Carls, and Jay.. i really appreciate that you made me laugh for the last time.. Steven, thanks for the gameboy and coins. i'll give it back when i see you. Gela, thanks! ok lang maging matakaw! gimme the number of your tita.. hehe. Cyndz, loved your pic with Ven. thanks for completing the scrapbook. Han, sorry di na ko nakanood ng stages of love. thanks for being there. Yumi, you can give the cartridge to Jay anytime. Karlo, thanks for the book. i'll read it when i get the time. Pao! email me, ok? Jay! gago ka! thanks for being with me through the whole thing.. simula sa bahay hanggang sa pagsakay ng plane. i'll see you soon, ayt?
guys! thanks for everything!
my family.. thanks for the prayers and for wishing me and my mom well..
kricel, i miss you na.. parang baguio ung atmosphere kanina e.. :(
i'll miss everyone!
i'll see you soon..
